Feeling better.

Sorry for the last post. I was going to take it down, but PPD is real, and I'm not going to pretend that I don't have total freak-out moments. It was good for me to get it out. I'm feeling better now. Going off meds, then back on them has made me so tired. Every morning this week, I havn't been able to function without a big nap.

I'll be very happy when my meds even everything back out, and I can get back to the normal me. I like the normal me :)

Thanks for bearing with me.


QueenMeadow said...

((hugs)), I hope things improve quickly and never feel guilty about posting downer stuff, its all real and getting it out may help? I hope.

Maine Mom said...

I agree with queenmeadow, we need the real stuff along with everything else...hang in there. I'm glad you're starting to feel a bit better.

Michelle said...

I think it's best to let it all out, the good and the bad. I think you're fantastic for being brave enough to share that with all of us.

Rachelle said...

Hugs! I really think you should give photography a shot. Don't give up on a dream. I hope you start feeling better!

The Constant Gardener said...

It always bites to take steps backwards when you've been doing so well. You can do this---and this stage will pass.

GO FOR IT with the photography. Everyone has to start somewhere.

Andrea said...

I missed your last post Sunny i'm sorry. I am glad your feeling better. I know all about the tiredness, knocks you out huh? Take care ok. We love you!

Lee said...

It is so good to get things out. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You have a lot going on in your life. ((hugs))

Lei said...

Hugs, Sunny... I appreciate your candor and realness... hang in there!

emlouisa said...

I am glad that you posted the last post. People can benefit from stuff like that. We all learn from each other.

Lisa M. said...

I just stumbled across your place today, this is my first visit, and it won't be my last! I love "truth" blogs. Where people really write what is in their hearts and on their minds.

I experienced PPD with my first child, and I felt this overwhelming sense of disturbance, when she was about three months old, and I thought to myself, "I don't even LIKE her", I didn't want to be a parent, I felt awful. Guilty and like there was something so horribly wrong with me, that I would never ever be fixed.

She had terrible reflux (way back in the day though, they didn't have that name for it, nor medications for it, like they do now) and she cried constantly.

She screamed and screamed and I just laid there in my bed one night, and prayed for death. It was horrible, and the guilt. I finally called my Mom and told her I was going to through the baby out the window if she didn't come and get her. Which she did, and it was four am.

That was just *one* of my "freak out moments"

That was fifteen years ago, and I didn't have a clue what PPD was, or that it was not atypical.

When I went back and read through your post, the feelings seem so akin to what I felt.

I am glad that you just "put" it out there. I appreciate that.

I hope that you get feeling better.

I also read a post where you said, you had been changing your blog design. I LOVE, and I mean LOVE the picture at the top and the colour scheme. I wish I could fiddle with mine and not rely so much on a template. Mine is boring, but I don't really "get" how to change it, and I am too... um.. unwilling to ask my husband to help me.

Anyway, thank you for the good read, I have enjoyed it.

Oh and precious pictures of your girls, at naptime. It brought tears to my eyes.

scraphappymama said...

Okay, so this is my first time stopping by too. Love your site and wish I had the talent to tweek my blogspot. Maybe one day when the kids aren't hanging all over me:)
I too am glad that you are willing to post the good, bad and the ugly. Sometimes I think everyone else's lives must be better than mine because they aren't talking about those crazy-wish-my-life-were-different-days. Thanks for sharing.

PS Do the photography thing... I have a friend who is getting started and she doesn't have any "professional" training. Who needs it?!?!? All it takes is patience, a good eye and practice. From the few pics I've seen on your post . . I'm impressed. Everyone has to start somewhere!!

I'll be back to visit again . . I'm liking what I see:)

ubercyl said...

I'm proud of you for posting what is real.

ubercyl said...

And yes, yes, yes, you should keep pursuing your photography dreams!

Stacy said...

ALWAYS find a way "out"! If it is photography for you - DO IT! Even if you don't ever become all PRO or anything... at least it's something for YOU to do and get your YOU time!

Kristen said...

I'm glad you're feeling better. Hang in there!