5 Years of Reflection

Over 4 years ago, I wrote THIS ... a post about my severe postpartum depression.  It's been 5 years today since I was hospitalized.  Today I am just grateful.

I am so grateful that my Father in Heaven saved me.  I'm grateful for a husband who listened to the spirit, and saved my life.  I'm grateful for the social worker who walked me through how my children's life would be without me.  I'm grateful for my sister-in-law who loved me, and listened to me, and shared her PPD journey with me too.  I'm grateful for an amazing network of friends, my MOFia girls, who loved me, and kept track of me through my recovery.  I'm grateful that Heavenly Father has allowed me to live, and give a voice to those suffering through PPD.  I am so grateful for medication that help my brain work properly, and help me to live in reality, instead of fear and darkness.  I am grateful for sunshine ... and bunnies.  I am grateful for my children - each one individually.  They are amazing, beautiful children, who bless my life daily.  

I am so grateful for Jesus Christ, my brother and savior, who died for me, and was resurrected, so we can all live again.  I am so grateful for the atonement - when I think of Jesus Christ in Gethsemane, and how he suffered for each of us, my heart hurts to think of MY burdens he bore for me.  The feelings of pain and sorrow, of loneliness.  I am so thankful I didn't have to go through depression alone - I felt alone and dark, but had God not been with me, I would have literally died.  I am so grateful for life.

I know that Heavenly Father loves me.  He loves each of us, even more than we can understand.  He cries for us, smiles with us, and loves us unconditionally.  I know that Jesus Christ is our savior, that he died for our sins, so we could return to our Father in Heaven again.  I know that families can be together in the next life, sealed together for eternity.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to be with my wonderful husband forever.

PS ... just another month until hubby & my 10 year anniversary!

1 comment:

Sheree said...

I am SOO glad you are here. You are the sweetest person and a great mom. I am amazed at your strength.